Room 304

I'm experiencing burn out again which is right on schedule time wise. I've been working for a full year in the traditional strip club and usually burnout and my lack of will to work creeps in every 8 months. I actually lasted a little longer only because there was a spike in traffic thus activating the fast money addiction cycle. Now that things have slowed down again and my earnings have been practically non-existent for the past few shifts, I've lost all motivation.

There have been a lot of girls working lately and not enough customers to go around. I've even stopped wanting to be friends with certain girls because I have to remember that in the club they're only competition. I've also been thinking about getting a regular job except I know how more soul sucking that would be.

I'm contemplating going back to the jack shacks, I miss the lack of pressure I had working at those establishments. It sucks that the only two choices to choose from are either extremely dirty and unkept cleanliness wise or take 30% of my earnings. Even more full service work would be better but the average provider price in my area is ridiculous and I won't lower my price to match.

I really just want to finish my real estate course as fast as possible so I can move on from this kind of work. I'm tired of the performance, the exhaustion, the inconsistency in money, constantly being sexualized on and off the clock, and having my self-esteem tied to my job and the money I make.